I'm sorry for cuffing you to my bathtub.

So bow down, Daisy Duke

(no subject)
Grease || beauty school dropout
[info]evil_zucchini
The Loyola School of Theology is officially the scariest place in my school. My friend Bea and I went to the library there earlier to research for our Theology project. The building's really old and not very maintained, and the library's structured in such a way that you enter and exit from the third floor, and then all the non-reference books are in the second and first. SCARY AS SHIT, man. No one was in that library except for the librarians and a couple of nuns who were doing research, and they usually stayed on the third floor because that's where the study carrels are and stuff. It's quite dark on the second floor, but that was fine because none of the books I needed were in that spot anyway, but even though the first floor was really well-lit, the bookshelves were so close together that I couldn't help but feel like the walls were closing in on me. And it was ABSOLUTE SILENCE. Not even the hum of the air-conditioning or the generator.

You'd think that as a Catholic, I'd be more comfortable in places like that. I mean, they have crucifixes and pictures of the Pope (and past Popes) all over the place. But I don't know, if I was a demon, or some strange spooky thing, I'd probably spend all my time in places like that, just to screw with the devout.

Oh my God, I'm going to hell. @___@

My sister's still pretty pissed off at me :( I wish I knew that she'd get over it, but I don't know.

I NEED A PLAN!!!

stuff
SHINee || Jonghyun
[info]evil_zucchini
  • Busy week ahead of me, but it's okay. The only thing I regret now is being too paranoid to audition for the Valentine's day production. I mean, I really, really want to be part of it, but at the same time I doubt that I have the discipline to be able to keep my grades up if I do get in. And I have a tiny chance of getting into the cast anyway. It's one cast of four, with only two girls. And auditions are open to alumni too, so since I've got only one production under my belt as a member of the ensemble, the chances of getting in will be like, practically nil. So there.
  • My cousin asked for advice. I feel like a real grown-up.
  • Discovered that one of my course-mates is a Kpop fan! We bonded over U-Kiss during Comparative Politics this afternoon, much to the chagrin of Krix, who was sitting in between us.
  • Mom bought me a new backpack and it is BADASS. I felt a little sad about having to retire my 8-year-old Jansport but it was literally busted. Like you could see the foamy bits in the strap and there were holes in the bottom from all the spirals I've used over the past few years...my Mom may not know how to shop for my clothes, but she definitely knows that I need big bags with lots of pockets since I tend to just stuff everything in them. She was threatening to buy me a Hello Kitty one like I used to beg for when I was in grade school and I was like, "Mom...no."
  • FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY. I need a ride. -___-; Why do I not know how to drive yet? jfc
  • So some bullshit is happening at school. Sanggu (kind of like student council) is trying to oust my good friend Harald from his position as course representative because he's a dual citizen (Austrian and Filipino) but dual's not good enough because you still can't register to vote. Supposedly, since Sanggu's advocating exercising your right to vote at the 2010 elections, it'd be hypocritical to have Harald on the team since he can't vote. And then Sanggu president brought up this clause in the Sanggu constitution about how you have to be a Filipino citizen to be an officer and I'm like, "Um, yeah, why didn't any of you find this clause when Harald was running and then stop him then?" It just reeks of stupidity and bullshit because Harald is an awesome course representative and I'm trying to start a Twitter revolution so if we're friends on Twitter and you see #saveharaldtomintz from me? Yeah, that's me trying to save my friend.

'tis the season
Hana Kimi || panty thief dance omg yay!
[info]evil_zucchini
Inspired by [info]mutatedpuffin and the fact that I just discovered that there's a post office nearby (fail, Kaye, FAIL!).

If you want a Christmas card from me, comment on this post with your name and address and I will try my hardest to send you one! :D Also, I'm not particularly artistic so tell me if it's okay if I send you a pre-made card with just a personal message inside, or if you really want me to make one. I don't mind if you want me to make one, I promise! I'm just worried about how it'll turn out. ^^

Comments are screened, I'll message you if I have any questions. Okay? GO!

nerd post!
Grease || beauty school dropout
[info]evil_zucchini
The new Rizal library is finally, finally open! I'm a huge nerd, though my grades do not suggest this at all. On regular days, I get to school and immediately make a beeline for the library, whether to cram some readings or to study...I just feel significantly better in the morning when I'm surrounded by books before class. I think it has something to do with the fact that books never test you on what you've learned from them. HAH. Anyway, the first week of school was a little sad for me because the old library was closed on account of the people moving the books and study carrels and things into the new one so I had to find a new place to kill time before my classes. I spent MWF mornings with Mish, Reese and Rian, spazzing about SHINee and TTH mornings usually in MVP Basement.

Anyway. The new library is so goddamn first world. I don't know how else to describe it. It's very white, and there's like a fountain in front, and there's supposedly a pond of some sort on the first floor. It's got four floors plus a covered roofdeck. It's huge and I got lost like twice trying to find my way to the reserve section so I could pick up my readings.

Most of all, it's really sterile. Like you can smell the fresh paint and everything, and it's really cold. And it's really, really huge so it kind of reminds me of a hospital instead of a place of learning. All in all, I would really like to have the old library back (it was cozier, but admittedly had less room, which was problematic during finals week because all the people who never even step foot in the library suddenly congregate and steal all the desks) but I'm glad the new one is finally open so I can finally get my study groove on. :D

Kaye Reacts To Stuff
real life || mah planner
[info]evil_zucchini
1. My Comparative Politics professor calling me Kane - Mountains out of molehills maybe, but it really, really bugs me. As in I was so bugged about it that I'm still thinking about it 24 hours later. I just...don't get it. Because for all intents and purposes, Kaye is a really easy name to remember. It's not extremely common like say Bea or Pat, but not so unusual that you run the risk of mispronouncing it. And I like to think that as a person, I am not particularly forgettable, especially since I am prone to classroom snarkiness. Then I realized that it's not that he was forgetting. He was purposely associating me with the name Kane and that's just fucked up. It may make more sense to you but it doesn't make sense to me at all.

I think he's scared of me now because I've bitched at him twice already. Or if not scared, annoyed. Every time I raise my hand to recite, he's always, "What's your name?" and I go, "Kaye, sir." and he goes, "Ah, yeah Kane." and I'm like, "NO SIR, IT'S KAYE." With matching tone of impatience in my voice. And one time he responded with, "But Kane--" and I full-on interrupted him with matching death glare and said, "No sir. It's KAYE," while adding expletives in my head. Please tell me I'm not overreacting and that my annoyance is at the very least valid.

2. My Comparative Politics classmates in general - We spent half an hour comparing apples and oranges, and zebras and horses just so we could explain what 'comparative' meant. Insert appropriate face!palm picture here





first week down
real life || mah planner
[info]evil_zucchini

Spanish - I got Senorita Young again, and she's not bad. She really makes you work for your grade, which is okay. I may whine about work but I'm not afraid of it. I like work sometimes. Of course I gotta work doubly hard now. I only got a C+ last semester so I am thiiiiis close to losing my Spanish minor. Senorita Young still calls me 'la otra Jean' for some reason, but she also calls Jean 'la otra Kaye' so I guess that's fair. HEH. (for non-Spanish speakers, 'la otra' means 'the other,' which basically means that she mixes up our faces and I don't know why because other than the fact that Jean and I both wear glasses and have semi-wavy hair, I don't see the resemblance)

 

long-ass post )

I had two strange dreams but only one is worth retelling: I was repeatedly whacking Jonghyun over the head with my shoe and it caused a huge scandal in Korea. Well, not so strange if you consider the fact that my default threat for people who piss me off is "Sasapatusin ko yun eh," which roughly translated would entail using your shoe to victimize someone but I like to think that it's whacking someone repeatedly over the head with a shoe, but strange because I chose this method to teach him some respect. I think the netizens tried to dig up dirt to fuel their rage but they didn't do anything except sign a suicide petition and spam my LJ with mean comments. In the end, I made an entry on my LJ that said, "Dear netizens, go fuck yourselves," in sparkly rainbow text.
 


I'm still not over it
2PM || GROPE
[info]evil_zucchini
I was supposed to update this Friday to talk about my first week back in school but what I am feeling now is PURE UNADULTERATED KILIG
GIRL COME A LITTLE CLOSER LET ME SHOW YOU WHAT YOU NEVER FELT BEFORE~
I'm not sure what the English translation of 'kilig' is. The closest would be giddy, I suppose, kind of like when you're in high school and the boy/girl you like smiles at you from across the room, or touches your hair, but 'giddy' doesn't really encompass the full emotional experience. Like I listened to Taec's introduction in full for the first time (I listened to it yesterday when it came out but I was kind of zoned out due to frustration at my CD burner) a few minutes ago in an extremely public place and I just had like this slow, silly grin forming on my face, crouching low and squirming in my seat going, "eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee"

Yeah. Haven't downloaded the full album yet but so far, I'm liking what I'm hearing. I've been hearing people going, "This isn't the 2PM I fell in love with DDDD8" and I hate those kinds of comments. I mean, yeah it sounds really different but aren't musicians supposed to like have a progression and evolution of sound? I'm fully buying this album, boycott be damned.

Unless they mean it's not the 2PM they fell in love with because the 2PM they fell in love with had 7 members, but whatever. 


Trauma Center indeed...
Epik High || OMG NO
[info]evil_zucchini
We bought two new games for the Wii today, Are You Smarter Than a Fifth Grader, and Trauma Center: New Blood. Can I just say that TRAUMA CENTER IS LIKE THE MOST STRESSFUL GAME I'VE EVER PLAYED EVER???

For the unaware, Trauma Center is like playing doctor. You have to cut up virtual people and bandage them and pick out bone and bullet fragments from their tissues. I tried playing it on normal mode and was doing kind of badly for the first two operations. And then my third patient had a bullet in his heart. A BULLET IN HIS HEART! To make things worse, the bullet was broken into TWO FRAGMENTS!! My hand was shaking so badly and I needed three tries to cut his chest open to get to his heart. And his vitals kept dropping!! And then I FAILED! The senior doctor had to take over and then afterwards there was this voiceover saying that "Doctor So-and-So (my character) was so traumatized by the failed operation that he dropped out of the medical practice and lived in a shame spiral all his life," or something.

OH MY GOD! O_O

So my little sister and I tried playing Are You Smarter Than a Fifth Grader? and it took us like three tries to win the entire game. THAT'S TWO PEOPLE! One university junior and one high school junior! But then again, that game is skewed to begin with as I'm not well-versed in like US Geography and US History.

Anyway, since I'm an emotional whore

the admiration & love meme
BOLSTER MY EGO HERE

Reverse Friends Cut
Epik High || OMG NO
[info]evil_zucchini
It's crossed my mind that I'm not exactly the most amiable person in the world.

(cue the collective "DUUUUUUUUUUHH"s) 

So here's the thing. I'm mean. I'm opinionated. I'm not exactly shy about expressing my dislike for something/someone, I don't sugarcoat my criticisms...and I don't see why I should as this is my personal blog. I write it for myself, not to please the internet populace. Having people follow my blog is a bonus. I like meeting other people who share similar interests but whose opinions may or may not differ from mine. Besides, I'm not mean all the time and when I'm wrong, I say I'm wrong.

Anyway, the point of this tirade is this: if you find my comments off-putting or offending, feel free to take me off your list.

That's all. Thank you. :)
PS I'm sorry if this sounds incredibly pretentious. I mean, I'm reading it and I kind of want to smack myself across the face. 

these are mah confessions~
real life || mah planner
[info]evil_zucchini
  • You know Sulli from f(x)? Yeah, I kind of sort of really want to punch her in the face. I get that she's supposed to be LIEK OMG THA CUTEST THING EVAR!1!!11and not thinking she's cute is the equivalent of kicking a bunny, but no. Her face and cutesy act just really, really bugs me a lot. To make it worse, she is in like every single shot in that new MV. Well, I'm kind of meh to f(x) as a group anyway so it's not like I'll be spending a whole time watching them perform, but having Sulli shoved in my face is not going to make me like her more, folks. Same with Amber and Krystal.
  • Especially since in terms of beauty (lmao cheesy), I think Luna has more pleasing facial features. Not to mention, she can actually sing and I find her dancing groovier than Sulli's. Same with Victoria, damn that girl is bendy.
  • Also, they've got two songs out. And those two songs kind of sort of really suck.
  • You know who else is a good singer? Youjeen from Cherry Filter. But good singer is an understatement. Her pipes completely blow me away
  • I have never experienced snow. I mean, duh, tropical country and all that, but I did go up to a mountain in Vancouver. It was snow-covered, but it wasn't the same. I want snowflakes, shoveling driveways, scarves and boots...the works.
  • Going back to school on Monday \O/ My brain is just rotting here at home. I feel like I can only take two weeks of break. Anything more than that and I start losing IQ points.

let's get a little sentimental
real life || mah planner
[info]evil_zucchini
Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything.

Post anonymously. Speak honestly. Post as many times as you like.

I would leave it at that but win must be shared )

5 Things I Wish I Did
real life || mah planner
[info]evil_zucchini
1. I wish I continued with my ballet lessons - I started when I was like three but I quit a few months after because when I was walking home (with my then-nanny Yaya Babes) a jeepney ran over my foot D8 I didn't break any toes but after that, I didn't want to come back to the studio. The story I've been writing involves an ex-ballerina so I was doing a bunch of research by watching videos of variations and stuff and they were all just GUUUUHH. Beautiful. I wish I could do beautiful things like that. I really want to take ballet again but I'm embarrassed because I'll have to start from the zero again, with all the little girls :(

2. I wish I dressed up for Halloween this year - My sisters and I didn't go trick-or-treating this year (and my village is kind of lame when it comes to giving out candy anyway. When I was younger, everyone gave out candy and I managed to fill up at least two garbage bags full. But you know. Recession and everything), and I didn't go to any parties so I saw no point in dressing up if I was just going to mooch around the house but I headed over to [info]omona_lounge  and everyone's costumes were so awesome. Next year, I just might throw a Halloween party of my own just so I can dress up.

3. I wish I had the foresight to apply for AB Communication Arts instead of AB European Studies. - I'm sick of people going, "European Studies? What's that?" when I tell them my course. Charlie likes to rub in the fact that I should be in Comm because "Comm is for creative people!" You know you're doing something wrong when your neighbor knows what you should have done better than you do.

4. I wish the Philippines didn't get everything so late - It is killing me that AXN Beyond (which is where Supernatural is playing) has only just ended Season 4 last week. And Season 5 will probably be over before we get it over here. Don't even get me started on So You Think You Can Dance, which is like my favorite show ever. Season 3 has been on loop since God only knows when. I KNOW SABRA AND DANNY WINS OKAY??

5. I wish I continued playing soccer/futsal/football - Because I was one helluva goal-keeper. DIBA RAGE? DIBA? 8DDD

(no subject)
real life || mah planner
[info]evil_zucchini
I spent some time with my Dad awhile ago. He was making his Caesar salad dressing--the one so amazing that even though everyone on his side of the family makes Caesar salad dressing, his is the only one worth bringing during our annual Christmas pig-out--and I was helping out like I used to when I was younger. I remember that smile he gave me (not as crinkly-eyed as it is now) when he finally let me in on the secret ingredient, remember that encouraging, "Galing! (Great!)" when my little arms were getting tired from mixing that bowl. I remember that I thought my Dad was amazing, creating something as awesome as this and what a shame it was that he had to go into the family business instead of following his passion for cooking.

Daddy, I know I don't say it as often as I should but I love you so, so much.

photoshop fail and other woes
Epik High || OMG NO
[info]evil_zucchini
I have class at 6-9 PM. With the same nutjob who made us do presentations the whole of last semester (when I evaluated her, I answered seek employment elsewhere under the part about comments and suggestions). If this isn't enough reason to get a car, I don't know what is. I'm not going to be commuting from school to my house wtf are you kidding me? AT 9PM? I don't care if it's just one jeepney ride to Petron.

Please, please, PLEASE let Borja be a decent enough teacher. I hate Theology or anything to do with discussing religion academically so I would really rather this experience be a painless one. And a bunch of bwakaw seniors used up all the slots for Ambassador Manalo's class. T_______T FUCK FUCK FUCKITY FUCK.

Legend for the Curious:
FLC 4Sp - Spanish 4
POS 131 - International Political Economy
PH 102 - Philosophy of the Human Person II
TH 131 - Marriage, Family Life and Human Sexuality in a Catholic Perspective (don't know why I need this, I am perfectly aware that sex makes babies thank you very much)
POS 194.3 - Comparative Politics (Europe)
EU 31 - Research Methods (what is this I don't even gah)





each morning I wake up I die a little
2PM || too much teeth
[info]evil_zucchini
* Reply to this meme by typing "I'M AWESOME". * I will then give you 5 words that remind me of you.
* Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

Stole this from [info]mutatedpuffin

School
- I go to Ateneo de Manila University and they're all about having 'a well-rounded Jesuit education,' the well-rounded bit being the main reason why people over here tend to wig out every semester. Here's an example: we're required 12 units of Philosophy and Theology no matter what your major is. 12! But my school is one of the best in the country so I really shouldn't complain (but I do and I complain a lot, which is probably why Anna gave me this).

moar moar moar )
I found my mom's old Hip Hop Abs DVD yesterday. My muscles burn. T__T
 


Kaye's Attempt To Be Physically Fit #1 & 1.5
Suju M || Henry = pogi
[info]evil_zucchini

Tried jogging around ze neighborhood today. It would have been a success except for the fact that I kept seeing these black spots in my vision every time I ran for more than two minutes, which is highly pathetic if you ask me, and also indicative of my lack of sleep (I honestly cannot sleep before 12 T_T I was even nodding off during the homily at church awhile ago). So I would run for a few minutes, walk, and then run again. On my way home, I was walking and this teeny but vicious-looking Miniature Pinscher started running after me, barking it’s wee head off. Now, I like dogs. I’m totally a dog person. Except when I was a kid, I once got a bad bite from a Mini-Pin so the sight of one even today strikes fear into my usually-stalwart heart. Small dogs like Mini-Pins and Chihuahuas serve no purpose, if you ask me. They’re really ugly and bark a lot in that high-pitched yappy voice, and you can't pet them because they're not very fuzzy.
 

I’m trying dancing now. Downloaded a bunch of Kpop dance tutorials from Youtube and now I’m actually feeling ze burn. I just might be convinced to go make a fool out of myself at K-Con by joining the dance contest.

NOT. 

Editing just because I want to post my new favorite gif ever: 
 
Kid is GAWJUSS. I don't understand why they don't make em like that in the Philippines. Or if they do make em like that in the Philippines, why don't they go to my school?

BV BV BV
Grease || beauty school dropout
[info]evil_zucchini
BV = Bad Vibes, which I am currently experiencing. But not really. In retrospect, I should thank my lucky stars that I ended up with Philo and History profs who were decent enough to have given me a C+ and a B+ respectively because I know a bunch of people whose Philo and History profs gave them D's, thus significantly pulling down their shiny QPI's (this would be the equivalent of a GPA). My QPI is still 2.75, which is like a C+. Not such a big deal for me since I've always been just above average academically (but I do win at life sometimes, which is also important) but I'm kind of dreading showing my grades sheet to my parents. I mean, I've always gotten a handful of B's and then like two C's. But this semester it's like, two B's and a lot of C+. And my Dad's getting surgery on his back in a week or so, so I'm scared that my low grades are going to give him additional stress or whatever.

What bugs me more are my Polsci grades. If it had been any other teacher, my 83 would have been a B. But no, it's HER and her B is an 85 so I'm stuck with a C+. Mom and Dad will not understand this.

But yeah, considering how the rest of the year went, it could have been a lot worse. 

So next semester, no excuses (unless you count Theology, my Achilles' heel because...no). No typhoons, no swine flu. By George, I'm making it on that goddamn Dean's List.

Edit because...well, I just felt like it: The only reason why I'm not as upset about this as I should be is:
1. I deserved them sad, sad grades - everybody else went through the same things I did: terror profs, mountains of readings, cancellation of classes due to natural and unnatural calamities, and they all managed to do way better. Therefore, I whine too much and not do enough. Therefore, that's gotta change.
2. I watched the Beast documentary a little while ago - could not understand a thing because I can't speak Korean but AJ's "HIYA! GOOOOD MOOOOOOOOOOOORNING!!!" cracked me up so bad. And there is never enough magnae, which saddens me quite a bit. He's got a sexy speaking voice. Therefore he must speak more.

I'm kind of sorta really sabaw right now. Going to bed. @_@

Being in the school of social sciences means a lot of reading
Beast || There is never enough magnae
[info]evil_zucchini
Behold, my readings for the first semester of the school year, not including my Polsci ones which averaged about 35 pages a pop. They're all in .pdf format because the Polsci department is trying to be environmentally friendly. That stack was about an inch or two taller than my ankle. 

Now I have a lot of scratch paper for the succeeding semesters. YAY :D

Kpop post
2PM || GROPE
[info]evil_zucchini
Okay so I've watched Beast's MV for Bad Girl and Beast is the B2st (if they don't release an extended version, I'm going to plotz) about...ten times already and I think my love for this group is growing significantly faster than my love for MBLAQ. Doesn't help that I've dreamed about them already, and what a strange dream it was. I think the dream came from the fact that I was so bothered by their six members. Cos if they're going to do the typical V shape line-up (which they are doing), there's going to be one stuck behind. 

Anyway, I dreamed that I was a part of Beast. Like a legitimate, poppin-lockin, krumping girl in the group and I had the funny outfits and funny hair and everything as well, and we were shooting the Beast is the B2st. And then AJ was like, "You know what would be awesome? If you took your shirt off like me," and I was all, "WAT. UM, I'm a girl." But no, AJ wouldn't listen and he unzipped my top and I discovered that I had no boobs. 

Like I said, it was weird.

Anyway, I like Dong Woon. I think it's the nose. I'm convinced he's a mutt and I won't rest until I find out what his mixture is (kind of like how my sister and I believe that Alexander Lee Eusebio from U-Kiss is secretly Filipino). And I don't really like Hyun Seung. He simultaneously reminds me of Uee from After School and So Hyun from 4Minute and I have a pretty low opinion of both of them. But obviously Hyun Seung is not as useless as Uee is, neither is he creepily smiley like So Hyun.

My little sister likes Beast as well. Her favorite (as of now) is AJ and she says that his bling in the MV makes him look like his chest is being censored. XD

Things I Intend To Do During Break
SHINee || Jonghyun
[info]evil_zucchini
1. Catch up on lost sleep - I've got some sort of insomnia, though. Even if I try to sleep early, my brain keeps buzzing about stuff that it shouldn't be buzzing about so I end up just lying there for an hour before I finally fall asleep. It's a teenager's worst nightmare, I say. I mean, we're supposed to sleep a lot.
2. Get my driver's license - Or at least go to driving school.
3. Learn how to cook - my dad's always after me to cook for the family
4. Work out - boo to people who say I don't need to. I'm not after losing weight. I just want some strength training and toning.
5. Learn Oh Yeah, Bad Girl and Super Girl - these might fall under working out though. Have you seen choreo for Oh Yeah? That shit's no joke. I totally understand why MBLAQ sound so breathless when singing now.

Wish me luck :D